My Mistakes

Honestly, I’ve been having this huge battle with myself about weather I should post this or not, I’m kind of scared that someone might see this and judge me or call me names or something, until I thought back about the reason I created this blog, to vent about my problems and maybe reach out to someone else gong through the same thing… so here it goes. After I posted my last blog post I wasn’t sure what to do with the rest of my day, besides this blog literally all I do is sleep and listen to music. I don’t go out with friends or party or have sex or do drugs or whatever it is 15 year old girls are supposed to be doing this generation, so I got on youtube and obsessively watched most of the videos from one of my favorite youtubers, Laura : http://www.youtube.com/channel/UC99LFxQRYI0d-SeXAzDpCrQ
Her channel is all about getting the issue of self harm out there for the world to see and to spread awareness, I really respect her for that. Eventually, this idea sparked in my mind. I don’t know why it did because I haven’t had the urge in over four years… but I did. And so the idea grew and grew and grew until finally I gave in and did it. I cut. I grabbed the first sharp object I could find and just went for it. I’m kind of in regret kind of in relief I have a lot of mixed emotions about it right now.

3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. nikkisth0ughts
    Sep 23, 2013 @ 20:12:50

    i am a fellow cutter. i haven’t cut in quite some time. but the urge doesn’t go away…and just like any other addiction…relapses are inevitable. because it IS an addiction. it comes with mixed emotions of shame and euphoria. don’t be to hard on yourself
    stay strong!

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