Depression Update

For a while there I was starting to get a lot better with the whole depression thing. I was starting to talk to a couple of friends and I even got past my fear of going into the lunch line at school and ordering lunch which was a huge milestone for me. But this weekend out of nowhere I got pulled back so much lower than I was before. It feels instantaneous really. Past couple days I havent had any urge to live life like a normal human being. I find myself struggling to perform basic necessities for life such as getting up to make myself food or to take showers, as gross as that sounds but its the truth. I didnt want to bother communicating with my grandmother to ask her to borrow her laptop so I just started blogging from my phone. I even dropped out pf NaNoWriMo. The thought of It just scared me and gave me anxiety and I dont know how to explain It but I just couldnt do It. Its 7 at night and im exhausted mentally and so is my body. Its just a major change from where I brought myself up to. I thought I was finally getting better …

2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. shuart24
    Nov 03, 2013 @ 20:57:11

    I went through the exact same thing and it’s a sign that you need to change your situation now. What helped me with my anxiety and depression was concentrating on a goal. Not necessarily a big one but a regular one that produced a small reward everyday. I came to the decision that I had to stop running away. Instead I had to run towards something.

    You mentioned that you liked photography. Perhaps you could challenge yourself to take one photo every day that really captures an emotion. I’ve taken a few years of photography myself at school so I would be happy to lend you tips. 🙂


    • shuart24
      Nov 03, 2013 @ 21:06:55

      Oh and don’t worry about NaNoWriMo. It’s a stressful event by nature. For people with anxiety, that stress prompts a defense mechanism. Instead, take writing slow and steady even if you’re only writing 50 words a day. It’s much more conducive to your health and happiness.


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