As we all know, today is Valentine’s day. I’m one of those people without a Valentine to celebrate with… so my night is going to consist of Netflix, reading, and Chinese take out. Anyone else doing the same?
I refuse to allow myself to become miserable over today. I hate that I’m so socially awkward. I hate that I’m scared to leave my house. I hate that I’m so quiet… I hate that I’m so scared to get close to people. I feel like I might have been attractive enough to have a date tonight, if these hadn’t been issues for me. But tonight, I drown my sorrows in fresh baked cookies from scratch. Would anybody like to message on kik?

Fresh Faced

Okay so to be frank I haven’t been posting on here as much as I’ve wanted to, its due to the fact that I didn’t think my content was good enough to be posted. That is, until i realised that I was actually getting views and follows with the few that I was posting, so I guess I’ll keep at it and stop worrying.
This is just an update post to say that I’ve removed all of my piercings and stretched ears and I want to start over. This might seem kind of stupid but it means something to me. The piercings that I’ve had before all came from a bad time. I got them to rebel rather than because I wanted them, and they were done with safteypins rather than sterilized needles. I want to redo everything. I want to be mature about my body and get them done the right way. So here I am, freshfaced and ready to go. They’ve closed up and my body is prepared for the journey 💋-KJ

Also, Like this if you want a fall makeup routine

Beauty and Body Mods💋

Hey guys, today we’re talking about Body Mods compared to traditional beauty. This is going to be more of an opinion post


So its no secret that I absolutely adore different forms of body mods and alternative beauty, I’m in love with all of mine and I love the way that they make me feel beautiful and unique❤ and i plan on getting many many more (credit to this photo belongs to @ofmiceandsex on instagram). I really want these hip piercings, but ill be going over my next planned mods in a different post. But since I’ve begun this journey its a striking realization that not everybody thinks the same way that i do. A lot of people tend to look down upon anybody that looks different than the traditional cookie-cutter view on beautiful. And having constant insults thrown at me and rude thinly-veiled attempts at telling me I’m less intelligent than any other because of my piercings, has caused me to pose the question “can we look beautiful and still be unique?”
Of course my answer to this is yes. I personally get much more enjoyment out of seeing a pretty girl with a full sleeve of tattoos than seeing your typical blonde-hair-blue-eyed girl sporting the latest Forever 21 finds. I guess for me its because I like change. I like seeing new, exciting, and different. I like to change things up, and for me i feel like these are the types of people that become leaders, they’re not afraid to take risks and stand out. So in this case, why is it that we still judge people who look different? Why is it that its considered unprofessional looking to have a piercing or tattoos or stretched ears? It’s the new millennium. Its nearly 2015. Were not still in the 40’s where you needed to uphold yourself in the most perfect manner possible in order to be treated like a human. I feel like we all need to take a step back and take another look at out morals.

My Contour Routine (how I apply bronzer)

Hey guys💋
So today I’m just going to be doing a quick contour rotuine
(Sorry about the harsh lighting. Im still working on lighting in my makeup area)


So the tall photos on the sides im just showing you two of the brushes I use for the bronzer. On the left is just a fluffy brush from Sephora (used for blending) and on the right is a big angled brush used to contour. You don’t absolutely have to have an angled brush to apply, but personally I find that I have a lot more control with one vs any other kind of a face brush.
The bronzer I’m currently using is the Chocolate Soleil by Too Faced. I personally love it, its able to do its job without looking muddy (which is kinda hard lately in finding bronzers) but also smells heavenly ❤
Of course though you just have to experiment a little in finding which bronzer looks good on your skin tone, what works for me may not work for you.
Anyways, starting from the top picture you see me making the pursed-lip snooty face. This is so i can find where I want to apply bronzer. Start from the side of your face and take it under your cheekbone to about half-way to your mouth. (Picture 2). Follow your natural face contour. Don’t drag it all the way across to the mouth or it may turn out looking like just a dark line drawn across your face. You want an airbrushed soft look, not a penciled in look.
LESS IS MORE. Start light and darken it as needed. And repeat on the other side.
Next I just take a tiny bit and pat it on my temples.
You could stop here and blend it out and be done but i also like to contour my nose as well to try to thin it out a bit. I’m taking a pretty thin brush (third picture down) and taking a small ammount of bronzer onto it, I say a small ammount because ive noticed that the bridge of my nose is most likely to get caked up with bronzer. I just use that to draw a two lines, starting on each side of the bridge of my nose and keeping that line straight down all the way onto the tip of my nose, and finally dragging those two lines together on the tip of my nose at a point. (Last two pictures down).
Now for the single most important step BLEND, BLEND, BLEND.
Take your big fluffy brush and blend out all of it to remove any cakiness or harsh lines to give it your more subtle look. & don’t forget the nose ladies
Remember to be patient with it. It took me a few times to get it down pat, and good luck😜 -KJ.

OOTD – Pretty In Pink

Hey guys. So im just here for a quick ootd. I absolutely LOVE this outfit


Everything shown here came from a store called Playto’s Closet. If you have one in your area and you haven’t been to it yet I would just like to say, YOU NEED TO GO.  This is my new favorite clothing store. We all known how cheap I am, and fashion on a budget is like my religion. All pants and shirts/blouses were in between 6 to 8 dollars.  And shoes were around 12 dollars.  Its not like a regular thrift shop either, everything is only slightly used and fashion foward. I found pieces that are softer and also a bit edgier. So theres something for all styles. Its fabulous.
The blouse was 4 dollars, the leggings were 6, and the shoes were 10 dollars.  I already owned the pink tank top underneath


Alright guys, so first things first… im not the same person I was when I started this blog. Im… better? (For lack of a better term). My depression and anxiety is nowhere near at the place that it was. Im sorry that ive been away for so long, I thought that I was done here. But once I logged in and saw that I was still getting views and follows even after being gone for so long it made me extremely happy. I cant just delete this blog, but just a heads up the direction of it is going to change a bit. First, no more of me bitching about my problems (especially small ones), thats all in the past.
We all know that I have the secret desire to be a beauty guru so im going to give it another shot (you may laugh if I fail miserably). I’m still going to be talking about my life and stuff if you guys want to hear about it still (well, thats why over 100 of you guys are here) I’d just like feedback. Ill be back with an update and everything later
Caio x.

Following My Dreams

Well guys, I went out on a limb and started on youtube.

I have a beauty channel, featuring completely drugstore products, i’d love if you guys checked it out and maybe subscribed..?

SICK DAY ESSENTIALS/outfits and makeup ideas.

Yeah so the day before last I had an itchy throat, and literally overnight it esculated to not being able to talk because I was so sick, its awful. Everyone in my house is sick now because of me. I ALWAYS end up sick a week or two before Halloween. I have the daily kind of life where I have to get up and go to school at six in the morning every day and these are all of the things I use to get me through that.

So without further ado, my sick day essentials.

  1. Lipbalm, my lips get all gross and chapped (I love e.o.s just throwing that out there)
  2. lotion and face moisturizer for the same reason
  3. homework, when I get home from school I end up laying in bed until its time to go to sleep… and I have a whole pile of undone math homework stacked up
  4. the tropical fruity kind of cough drops, the regular flavor grosses me out.
  5. WATER. lots and lots of water
  6. a comfortable hoodie. I have a low body temp while sick which is only made worse by my school feeling the urge to keep the air conditioner blasting all day. My grandparents went on a road trip this weekend and brought me back a nice comfy thick hoodie today when they got back
  7. headphones and a novel, it hurts to talk so I find ways to stay focused on other things, just something to avoid social awkwardness
  8. a stack of movies, namely the nightmare before Christmas, the corpse bride (I love time burton), clockwork orange, monster inc (the new and old one), and all of the Halloweentown movies (which are personally my FAVORITE part of this time of the year, I watch them every year). My brother JD loves to lay in bed and watch movies with me
  9. My phone, I don’t have any Nyquil right now and when im sick without medicine my body loves to stay up all night and make me miserable. Instagram and KIK save me from that problem a bit.
    INSTAGRAM: kaiaa_love
  10. Portable tissue packs, I love the ones with the cute designs on them

personally around this time of the year while im sick and feel like crap all I want is to be comfortable. I’d be dragging my blanket around with me all through my school day if I could. As mentioned above I spring for a big black oversized hoodie that’s super warm, I usually just pair it with a tanktop and legging style yoga pants, along with either ugg boots or my slip on hello kitty vans because both are nice and comfortable so it all depends on what the weather is like outside because it can be pretty bipolar where I live.
As for bags for some reason this is the time of the year I love to carry a very small bag with a long cross-body type strap. I have a really cute coach one that looks like colorful patchwork on the front of it (I usually like huge oversized purses)
Makeup: honestly. none. I refuse to wear makeup when im sick because im always crying and with a runny nose it just ends up looking horrible by mid day. If I really want to try though I’ll just put on a bit of foundation and concealer so I don’t look so much like Emily (corpse bride reference)
Hair: I’ll either go for a top knot with a stretchy headband that makes a statement or a low side braid. My hair is naturally extremely curly so ill barely pull the flat iron through it just to give it a wavy look because I just hate how my curly hair looks in a top knot for some reason.
Hope I helped a bit & if you’re sick like me then GET WELL SOON(: