The Worst Anxiety Attack EVER

When you go to sleep you suspect that it’s the one place you’re safe from all of your problems, right? WRONG. I was in bed and FINALLY getting a nice and peaceful sleep for the first time in god knows when, when BAM it hit me.
Well, I was having a dream and in my dream, my cousin and I were hanging out at school and about to head down to lunch, well he decided he needed to grab something from his locker so I walked with him and realized that I left my school I.D. in mine (we have to have it in order to buy lunch) and for some reason in my dream his locker was right next to mine. I walked up to my locker and that’s when I woke up in the midst of one of the worst panic attacks I’ve had in a very long time. My panic attack was due to the fact that subconsciously I remembered that I haven’t used my locker in a couple weeks and I got super scared that I couldn’t remember my combination while I was having my panic attack, and that’s what caused it; the fact that I couldn’t remember my combination at that exact moment. So after I found myself able to breath again I lay my head back on my pillow and finally I remember the combination. but still my anxiety was through the roof because I kept second guessing myself that maybe it was the wrong one or maybe I was confusing it from one of my combinations from last year (I had 2 lockers last year) but I was able to convince myself by visualizing the hundreds of times I’ve opened my locker the thing I use to memorize it every time. Even then I wouldn’t let myself sleep until I saved it on my phone and chanted it in my head over and over again until I was finally able to get my heat to stop racing and calm down a bit.
Needless to say I got zero sleep last night.

What I Want To Be When I Grow Up

Well I’ve been here about a month and already I’ve shared a bunch of my personal life with my followers. I guess I’ll expand on that and let y’all into a deeper insight about what I want to with the rest of my life.
MY HOPES AND DREAMS:

  1. Be and haveĀ a great wife
  2. Be a cosmetologist
  3. Be an elementary or high school art teacher
  4. Have 4 children (all adopted)
  5. Get married in my home state