As we all know, today is Valentine’s day. I’m one of those people without a Valentine to celebrate with… so my night is going to consist of Netflix, reading, and Chinese take out. Anyone else doing the same?
I refuse to allow myself to become miserable over today. I hate that I’m so socially awkward. I hate that I’m scared to leave my house. I hate that I’m so quiet… I hate that I’m so scared to get close to people. I feel like I might have been attractive enough to have a date tonight, if these hadn’t been issues for me. But tonight, I drown my sorrows in fresh baked cookies from scratch. Would anybody like to message on kik?

Bulemic Stomach Problems

The past few days have been pretty rough, I fell back into the cycle.
On Saturday was my little sister’s birthday and I binged as hard as I possible could’ve, oh my gosh. It just got so out of control it was astounding. When I got home I felt completely ill and tried to sleep it off because I knew what would happen if I decided to purge so I went to sleep around 7pm. I woke back up at 11 and couldn’t “just deal with it” anymore, so I went and purged… and purged… and purged. I think I held myself hostage for about two hours doing the water cleansing in between purges (anyone with ed will know what I’m talking about) and I felt like such shit that I couldn’t go back to sleep until like 4 am. The stress physically and mentally from being thrown back into the cycle really messed with my body, I haven’t had the physical compasity to be able to properly eat the past two days, and I won’t lie, I want to binge with my everything but I start feeling really sick after eating so much as a cookie. I was in the store yesterday and I drank a cappuccino the size of a shot glass and I nearly threw up everywhere (thank god I never made it to Starbucks like I was planning to, that’d be a huge waste of a Venti sized drink).

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I’ve been in class a total of 10 minutes and I’m already so bored i started looking at thinspo on instagram. here’s to shitty Wednesdays
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Pro Mia, watch this

at first I thought that this was a prank to troll everyone with an eating disorder, but this is really cool, she’s legit about it.
I think this should have more views.

this is for the girls that think its “cool” to have an eating disorder

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