Giving Up Finally

I’ve tried very hard lately to force myself to participate in life and talk to people and not completely exile myself but still I cannot do it anymore. My main reason was I was scared to lose my friends even though I didn’t want to be around people. It hit me today that Friday I’m losing the person closest to me, My best friend is moving away and then I’m left with nothing. Everyone keeps trying to make me feel better by saying ‘oh well you can still text and skype’ but in all actuality im not the type of person that handles any kind of long distance relationship (friendship or otherwise) over long term, so I see no point in bothering. So today I finally said fuck it. I didn’t talk to anybody, I sat alone at lunch and honestly it felt really nice. I didn’t have to worry about people trying to get me involved in the conversation or continuously asking what’s wrong with me, I could really just sit by myself and think. I guess I’m going to start cutting ties with people and just standing alone for a while.